just now went to skool at 3 ... we presented our project to the lectureers.. it was my first time . but it was okay lar. our project almost got into the tang ka kee competition . but due to some HENG's words ... the other lectureer did not agree to let us in . damn i was mad! cause our project is simple. the prototype was not good but it can be improved. im sure we can . they commented on any other ways to use it .. we said there is . so our prototype needs to be improved. ok i agree. but.. nvm ... hopefully next semester we can do better...haha... after dat we went to pizza hut to so called CELEBRATE wei chorng brthday and jeremy's.... before the order came, i was hurt when i saw that . at ferst i thought there's still a teeny weeny chance for me ... i love you i realli do .. i don think a can leave you.. all i must do is wait.. we still have three years... and that's a long time for me... i guess...


viva lalala ska was fe fe fun !!! i was drunk actualli ... ahha h... went there with rizal shasha lina wahidah is and me. at least the whole night i got her in my arms .. im so soglad.. wadeva is mentioned on this blog is through sometimes when ur single u dont get to share stories with someone special .but wad the heck she doesnt care and my love for her will never fade.. so at least there's someone for me to talk to . i love you.. you may regard me as a fren... now ive learnt a lesson. never try to woo girls when they are studyin.. so whenver you've got the opportunity to go out with her .then do not let it go to waste..think about it shah. it's worth the wait.so when im alone with you. you're mine..hehe.. tmr ive got a test.niwaes its mcq . but......no more time to relax! cause i failed my last test...oh gawd..give me another chance.. ive been sinful to u.please just let me get on to 2nd semester without failing an subjects. i wouldn't wanna b left out of the crowd. and ESP u.i can't bear to be apart.off to my notes!


clock struck 12 half an hour ago.... people might enjoy their life. but for me. homeworks will just keep me busy and slacking two days before test is like aiming a gun right on the head.. the test is gonna be freakng difficlut. yes i noe.. but wad to do...tis wed need to hand up report. gosh.. time pass by so fast.. its gonna be the end of one semester. if i fail i retain! god... u r alwaes there watching over me. my laziness brought me down... cannot put my heart to it. if ur gonna do the typing tomorrow...its gonna b a mission impossible. you might sae im jealous or wad...but its the truth.. fuck the truth!!she's happy i should be happy for her!!we r just frens after all.. im so happy ya...now im gonnna contimnue doing report.. if i'll need help i'll just call....let me guess.. no one!.... the end!


though i have a new fren..doesnt mean that i'm ready to let you go and continue with my own life.. its so obvious that i still want you to be my side..so stop doing this to me..i dowan u to change.. be urself.. i love it.. today... at skool had autocad, so brain was working his ass out...afta autocad she set off for work as i make my way to clementi .. planned to play soccer. so...went to our favourite spot to play soccer. clementi's basket ball court.. the place is quite eerie cause the flat beside it is empty.. they call is "tempat maksiat" haha...kody.. played soccer and yada3 ....afta dat we ate chicken chop ! at the $4.00 shop..haha...powerr... aniwaes now is not the time to sleep cos im waitng for a message from sum1 ... she's slowly slipping off my hands.. niwaes.. at the coffeeshop, all wanted to smoke ...so each took a chair carried it over the yellow line and lit a cig...nobodi would wanna be fined 300 dollars for just smoking at a restricted area...yaya sounds kinda dumb but was forced to...and i heard from my fren that cig pricing is increasing... maybe it will shoot up to 20 dollars per pack??dat's possible but ...its gonna be harsh...tats all...daaaaa


wads the next step to a great poly life? issit finally get the girl or just be frens and enjpy life betta? i am confused. when im with her she does not seem to like my company. if i have plans to go out with another gerl, sure she will comment ...shouldi go out to meet other gerls in the first place ? or shud i be a good dog waiting for her? i guess by finding a job will make keep me busy..but am i prepared for it? im slacking...not doing good for poly.. since entered poly, i've been loving physics.. for math is still so-so ...for other subjects that requires my brain to memorise every shitty shitty crap2, im not interested...seriousli..not interested...but wad to do...i'll need to force myself to sit in that study room of mine and memorise each and every detail of the two module so that i can pas and proceeed to the 2nd semester rather than sitting inside the same modulue repeating ....mi not prepared..poly life sure is tough..no difference though..only...we are able to wear home clothes...haa.adios.


now im at skewl sitting with bunch of gerls from other classes.. she's not here with me .. im so called alone for two hours la.. but nvm if tats wad se wants . den i cannot sae aniting... just did my math vector e quiz got 10/ 10 for it ...wow i am proud of myself.. at least i listen to lecture class just now..not that much though ..i got all the keypoints from MR. Baldy... haha kody... its so clear that my tutorial teacher is better than the lecture teacher....he sucks big time mann... just now had a heavy lunch ..just wanted to eat.. now im bloated ...there goes my diet.. haha ...semestral folio has to b finished by two weeks ..i am so dead.. daaa.a...


if i were to write each and every moment i miss you.
i guess it will not end .
there never has been an ending to this.
people might tell me to stop hurting myself.
but no can do.
i still love you.
each time u smile makes me melt inside.
i may be sweet. but this is from the heart.
you said when u first met me, u miss me when im not around.
how about now? how can the feeling towards me just vanish?
after all that i've done for you.
each guy you get to know, you will tell me.
i will find many ways just to make u happy.
now ur with him and im with nobodi.
how can i mend my broken heart?
how can i stay frens with you but deep inside i do lovve you?
will this get any betta or wad people said is true?
ishould just be frens with you and just be natural.
but i dont think i can. yesterday i was outside with my frens.
i called just to talk to you..
i miss you.

wads the use of confessing?
am i dreaming?
if i am WAKE me up..

Hello. I'm Shah. I'm 18 as of 6 nov.I love my girlfren!. I'm not a bastard.But I'm a muslim. I'm still schooling and hopefully finish by the end of april next year.
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